Chh chhh Changes...

Tomorrow is my birthday. As a present to myself I have allowed a certain “slack” for the last couple of weeks. I’m still adjusting to the routine change that happened over the fall break with Thanksgiving. I don’t mean this to sound like a Dear John, but Dear John:
My thoughts are scattered and translucent. I haven’t been very good with making things work lately. The month of November all but killed me. I am still recovering and picking up pieces finding new footing. The dark has settled in and I try to remember that the shortest day of the year is a mere 9 days away and then we start to turn again and face the sun.
I went on and one to my newly arrived to the Northwest friends about what it takes to make it through the winters here. But I didn’t happen to notice the boards of my soapbox were cracking beneath me, as I stood there so smug. I feel like as an adult now, nothing can phase me, but yet I find myself blindsided by predicament still often enough.
I’m still scrambling to the top of my heap of a life and trying to get a handle on things. Get my vices organized.
Ah change. I like to be in control of it and I honestly do not feel like I’m in that seat right now. My brain waves have changed, is there some astrological event? I need an explanation; if I can’t control it, dammit, I will understand it.

There is just one more week of school before winter break and our routine will still be in flux. I am really hoping that January and the New Year bring about some fixes. My mood is fine, its just everything around me is shifting. I feel like such a bystander.

My tattoo is colored in now though. I'm going back AGAIN to clean up the old Tennessee biker mess underneath next month.

Comments

[Joe]

I like that Tennessee Biker tat! There's nothing wrong with any kind of Tennessee Biker stuff!
The new ink looks good too!
-Joe-

[mamatried]

F&ck it. Let's sell the kids and run away to Andorra ;)

I have to admit that the culture may be what it is here but I sure do like the weather.